此刻的你是否也是那样想念我就像我那样想念着你?

我的心很痛。。真的无法形容。。每次你跟我吵架，是否也像我那么心痛呢 ? 我想你应该不会。。因为没有我，你的日子好像过得比较开心。。我的日子其实也可以过得很开心，但是我还是希望有你的存在。。有时候，一个人静静地想着我们的过去，我会哭。。真的哭。。但是，我想你不会了解。。因为你是不会读我在这里写的一切。。你可能认为我很任性，但是你不会知道或了解我有多爱你，多想你，因为我永远不比你的朋友重要。。任性一点，就只是想要你的关心多一点。。多撒娇，真的只是希望你能注意我多一些。。发脾气，只希望你看我及疼爱我多一点。。你会了解吗 ?

信仰

每当我听见忧郁的乐章 勾起回忆的伤
每当我看见白色的月光 想起你的脸庞
明知不该去想不能去想 偏又想到迷惘
是谁让我心酸 谁让我牵挂 是你啊
我知道那些不该说的话 让你负气流浪
想知道多年漂浮的时光 是否你也想家
如果当时吻你 当时抱你 也许结局难讲
我那么多遗憾 那么多期盼 你知道吗
 

我爱你 是多么清楚 多么坚固的信仰
我爱你 是多么温暖 多么勇敢的力量
我不管心多伤 不管爱多慌 不管别人怎么想
爱是一种信仰 把我 带到你的身旁
 

我爱你 是忠于自己 忠于爱情的信仰
我爱你 是来自灵魂 来自生命的力量
在遥远的地方 你是否一样 听见我的呼喊
爱是一种信仰 把你 带回我的身旁

萬芳 新不了情

心若倦了　淚也乾了
這份深情　難捨難了
曾經擁有　天荒地老
已不見你　暮暮與朝朝

這一份情　永遠難了
願來生還能　再度擁抱
愛一個人　如何廝守到老
怎樣面對一切　我不知道

回憶過去　痛苦的相思忘不了
為何你再來　撥動我心跳
愛你怎麼能了　今夜的你應該明瞭
緣難了　情難了

What should I do now? =(

I'm thinking.. Crying.. refresh back everything.. What should I do? All I can ask only WHAT CAN I DO?? WHAT SHOULD I DO?? I love you.. I accepted the way you are.. BUT.. All i need is at least let me know that u r safe at home.. Now I duno what rumours my friend heard.. But I scare.. Scare to know that you betray me again.. I scare to know that u have another girl again.. The fear never go away.. It keep in my soul for so long time.. Nothing can make it away from my soul cause it's really hurt.. I really duno what to talk to who or tell who.. Nobody would understand..=(

Msg to HIM

"" Dis the laz msg im gona send 2 u. Im nt gona disturb u after dis. After we bak kk frm kl, u seems nt so k me anymore. It seems lik we r stranger. I dn understand n cnt even guess wat u're thinkin. All i knw is i reli hardly cn meet u n u seems doesnt apreciate the oni few hrs we hv. I duno la. I jz wn an explaination on wat r u thinkin n y u do dis to me. 4 dis time oni i'll listen 2 wat u wn 2 say. I duno wat u doin in the midnight. I duno wat u doin after u finish work. I duno anythin bout u anymore. U nvr gv me a proper ans on wats goin on whn i ask u. So pls. If dis relationship hv to go smoothly, plz jz tel me wat happening. Tel me if thr is changes of heart, mayb u lik another 1, o mayb sum1 mak u hapy. Jz say it. I wn 2 knw. Pls k? "" 

This is the msg I've sent to him today.. I feel so hurt.. Feeling really insecure on you.. Feeling that you hiding something AGAIN.. I don't know la.. Start to have the feeling to give up.. Let it be.. =/

* Moody - Sad - Emo *

I don't know why this happened.. I don't know why you seems don't care.. Am I just a burden to you? four years already.. Why must we quarrel like this? I just want to be happy with you.. All I want is only when I call you, please answer, when I sms you, please reply, or even at night you go out, when you reach home, please just a simple msg to me.. I'm worry ok? I feel so disappointed when early morning i woke up, I never receive a single msg from you.. What happen to you? When we were at KL, you are so sweet, so caring, so cute, so happy.. The one week is so wonderful.. What happen? Who or what make you change? I don't understand.. You really that busy? Is that so? NO~!! You went out last night.. You say your friend wanna go UK already so you guys wanna have farewell dinner.. OK.. I let you go la of cause but why cant u at least send a msg to me and let me know that you reach home? You know what?? I don't remember when is the last time you call me o.. Is always i'm the one who call you 1st, I'm the one who sms you 1st.. Do u ever care??? I wonder...... Am i really the laopo u want?? U said financial problem is the only problem we have that make us cnt marry now.. Is it? really is that problem?? And you say you never leave me la, so love me la.. Where is the love?? I can't feel it.. I duno la.. Feel hopeless on this relationship anymore.. prepare to take another heart-broken from you AGAIN.. ='(

Moody ='(

 ♥♥I just hope to HOLD the L♥O♥V♥E you gave me for almost four years..♥♥

I really hope that IF there is anything, please don't hide behind me.. I feel so suffer to act happy in front of you.. I feel like you don't need me anymore.. At KL we are so happy and sweet like nobody ever that sweet before.. But now back to KK like everything change.. It's true.. We should be together 24hrs to make our relationship and our love grow stronger.. I really feel like wanna really become husband and wife.. BUT.. Financial problem still cannot support us to do that.. =( So what should we do? U live so far away from me.. I feel like I'm having long-distance relationship.. I really wanna stay with you and every night wait you come home to have dinner with me.. Maybe it seems like a bit selfish but I really wanna be happy and sweet with you.. I would let u go out with friends IF everyday i can see you.. But every time when we have the chance to meet, you'll ask your friends out too.. Not that I don't like.. I just hope that the 1day of 7days you would spend your few hours only with me.. I only hope that.. Is it really too over? =(

什么是爱情？

爱 情。。它到底是什么？？？它有时侯是甜蜜的。。有时侯却很苦涩。。它有不同的味道，有不同的颜色。。我的爱情又是什么呢？我们的爱情已经不能再像以前那样 地甜蜜。。因为我们之间实在发生太多不该发生的事情。。在 一起接近四年也没用。。感情好像淡化了。。在 一起太久是不是不好呢？？有时侯，一 个人静静思想时，很多过去发生的事都会一一出现在我眼前。。感觉上，那种事情好像昨天才发生的。。不过。。我 努力地抛去所有的胡思乱想。。再翻回去所有我们的回忆&照片&可爱 的毛茸公仔时，我想我们还是曾经拥有甜蜜的。。只 是，可能那种不好的回忆多过好的回忆而已。。对吗？？很 多人都认为我们俩的感情没那么好。。其实是对的。。但 是，就是因为我们感情很多外来因素，使 得我们的感情更坚固了。。没有人回真正明白我们俩的甜蜜到底有多甜，也没有人了解我们的爱有多深。。跟他独处 的每一刻都是我最美的回忆。。

♥ Reach Cititel Express ♥

[ Cititel Express - A quite expensive hotel for me.. Haha.. ]

First, I'm gonna upload the photos of  ♥ME♥.. =D 

♥ My White Polo T-shirt ♥

♥ My Pink Polo T-shirt ♥

♥Black Butterfly Singlet♥

♥Grey T-shirt♥

To be continue...... ♥♥♥

♥ Photos before take off & on aircraft & reach LCCT ♥

At this time, I still on the aircraft sitting & waiting.. Haven't take off yet.. Feel so nervous.. Hahahaha.. Cause this is my 2nd time in aircraft.. My first time was like so young, around 4/5 yrs old like that.. Thanks to HIM..♥

Still waiting.. =D

Taking off~ See the picture a bit senget.. Hahaha.. Like 'sakai' o.. xD

On the sky.. Weeee~!!! ^^ So happy!! looking at the blue sky & white cloud, it makes me more love GOD cause HE create such wonderful world.. =)

♥ The following photos would be in the aircraft at the sky.. ♥

♥ The following photos are the time we almost arrive at LCCT.. A bit can see the tiny town from the high sky.. I just love the SKY..!! >_< ♥

♥ At the end, we reach LCCT and then took bus to KL sentral then went to our hotel, CITITEL EXPRESS KL.. ♥