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Accidently read something.. Feel sad.. I don't know is my fault or his fault.. Our relationship have a lot of scars on it.. I don't know who should I blame.. I wanted to be a nice gf.. 3yrs and 7months.. We've been go thru so many and I hope it will make me stronger.. I won't angry u if u told me that u just wanna be friend with them.. But it seems like u're giving them hope.. You're telling them u get hurt a lot and then u don wan to be with them.. I feel hurt la.. Not only me, they would get hurt too.. If I'm the girl who make u can't trust in girls and feel like wanna play them, stop it and break with me then.. Why everytime when we are so sweet, so loving, so happy, and then I'll accidently saw something that I always wish I never see it??? I hate this situation.. Looking at u.. Wondering what should I said about what I see? Just shut up and cry alone to think what u've done on the year 2008 & 2009? Aiks.. I hate the time when I'm alone.. I try to forget but it seems that the scar u make on my heart is so deep and it's bleeding non stop even if I try to act happy.. I don't want to hate them cause I know u're the reason they did this.. U never tell other ppl who I am.. U never wanna let anybody know that we get back together.. U never accept the relationship request I've sent u.. U never want me to put our sweet pictures, our memories.. I don't get it.. I still scare until now.. Still scare that someday we're gonna broke up.. But I have the preparation already.. No matter what happen, I still have my friends, my family and GOD.. U might not believe but GOD make me patience and don't angry on what u've done.. GOD's wisdom words make me be patience and love anybody that maybe hurt me.. I forgive everything but I know it's hard to forget.. And... If not GOD, I maybe not together with u now after what u did.. =(